ME = Masochistic

I must hate myself because from my early youth I think I’ve done things to make my life worse not better. Yet at the same time I think I am narcassist because I do think I am coolest person in the world. Anyway Its that time of year. I will be in the schools again soon. The little bastards are coming back to ruin my life. I decided that I would refuse to let myself get stressed out this year. Like whatever I do is good enough, fuck everyone else if I am too busy or my students start sucking. Everyone can just go fuck him or herself. I am only one woman! Ill just do my best and go with it. I just want to chill with the little f-bombs and talk about lil’ wayne all day and have them tell me funny stories like when I was student teaching. I assigned myself up for a project that is paying me more money though I think it will be just more added stress, hence the masochism. But I am excited about it! We are going to do all this testing and mapping and our goal of the project is to see how feasible it would be to make Bushwick campus solar powered or partly solar powered. We already got some panels and shit. And our first field trip is to solar 1 on FDR drive! My ultimate fantasy is to write a grant to go to Hawaii for a solar institute and make that into a little vacation. I am still going to write a grant to go on a geological tour of Iceland in summer 2009 and hopefully stop off in Denmark for the Roskilde festival and Tivoli and all that good Danish stuff. Does anyone know how to write a grant?

In other good news I have 5th period and 6th period for lunch and so does Erin so that means we can go to her apartment everyday for 2 hours and listen to records and eat PB & J sandwiches. This year I am not going to give the little fuckers my lunch period. They can fucking come after school.

Does anyone want to go back to school shopping this weekend? I need boots, heels, and corduroys, some scarves and sweater vests.

<3, GJ